~~~...... SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU......~~~

hye all..
its been a while since my last post kan?
huhuhu...

• first things first,
• bangun pagi, mandi2, MEMASAK.
• on9 sejam lebih (lebih dan lebih)
• makan dan tgok t.v~
• best jugak cte kt tv ni...lepak dan mkan lg.....until~~

• kring2! (sape tu?)

ouh,ruepenye kak zaza...ahahah bwt tekejot je..

antara perbualan kami ada lah seperti berikut:

kak zaza: feee..akak nikah 12 dec ni tau..ahahaha
fee: ouh yeke?? congrats...heheh
kakzaza: erm fee ble nak dtg uma akak ni haa..tlg kemas2 uma?
fee: urm...arrrhhh kene ke?? erm tak ingt pon fee nji..ade ke kak?
kakzaza: eyh ape plak tade..dtg la..tlg akak ni haa..
fee: haa yela..esok feedtg tlg ea... ahahahah
kakzaza: ni fee dtg kn nnt akak kawen? fee kan PENGAPIT akak...

yea itu dia perkataan keramat tu...
PENGAPIT akak!

aku mane penah jd pgapit.. malu kot!! adoiii, nk kne jumpe mak bapak jan ag..
ouh..i ready ke huh???
sumpah takot weyh!!!
adoi..dengar pon da cukop scary, blom ag kawen derang tu..ouh!!
camne niyh?? skang ni sape yg cold feet?? aku kah??
oh NO!!!!

:)

............i've been waiting for this moment to come!!!

how to start? urm i don't really know where and why,

but i have a strange feeling this morning.. maybe it is RAYA and i'm supposed to be happy..

but then again, i'm just another creature yang agak confuse dengan persekitarannya.fullstop.

hari yang agak indah dan dingin ini kian membuatkan aku semakin bingung, kerana kehadiran hari raya yang serba sayu ini tidak lengkap dengan kehadiran seorang insan yg telah lama aku rindui.

ABAH..

al-Fatihah~

yea,i've said it! jadi kepada semua yang masih berpeluang nak katakan "abah, anakanda minta ampun dan maaf atas segala kesilapan yang anakanda lakukan, halalkan makan serta minun doakanlah anakanda menjadi anak yang solehah.." segeralah minta keampunan darinya.

HUBBY..

ouh windunya~

hahahaha...ini selalu terjadi, tapi it is not the major thing that makes me feel uneasy today. its just that i've been missing him lately, mungkin everyday..ouh NO! mmg EVERYDAY!..ahaha the fact that kami beraya di kampung halaman masing2 sgtlah menyeksakan. but, its okay..i'm learning how to survive without him by my side~ but honestly...i'm pretty much in love sangat dgn HIM. yes! i'm thankful and grateful coz tuhan kurniakan die dlm hidup aku!

:)

MAMA..

i love you ma~

huhuhu...i love u, and yes!

thank you ma coz u cooked great dishes and bagi duit raya yang sangat lumayan! hahaha knowing that mama will always be by my side whenever and whatever happen..thanks ma!

i hope it is not too late to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ UPSET dan masih akan!

ever wonder how it feels when it is not ur fault and people simply said it is yours?
well, that's is exactly had happen to me..
i got blamed because i drove the stupid little blue creature that belong to somebody and eventually....
other vehicle scratch it and left a mark..it is stupid to say that im not worried about the car, because i noe the feeling when something that you love so much gets a little bit here and there it'll be damn annoying!

tapi after all, ang buat aku lagi tak tahan tu, bukan ape..aku tahu salah aku..but bukannye 100% my fault..things happen and i bet if anybody were at my place they will tell the same..i've tried and at the same time, patutnye pikir la gune kepala otak kan...blaja je tinggi2..tapi tau nak put the blame on others je...

p/s: soory la kalo ade pihak yg terase..and benda ni sebenarnye takde la serius mane..tp part kena blame tu yg tak tahan sgt tu...happy readin yea?
xoxo~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Usuall Satu-r-a day...

went to BELANGA the Garden,bukak pose with hubby, all i can say ...it is okay~

after a tiring day, a little bit here and there; all sort of argumentation and reasoning..i personal thinks its me the matters last nite..ntahla, typical human being kan..tipu lah if tade masalah...

another chapter; TODAY!

wake up a bit late, didn't bother to wash up pon...maybe because i didn't want 'his' absent to just go away like that. and for the first time i went to bed yesterday, i didn't dream much..or should i say no dreams at all? but its okay, knowing that he'll being snuggling up in his bed today after his duty as a student, i thought myself not to bother him for quite few days...let us be chill with ourselves..its just to bothering to see him upset and myself unhappy with whatever we've been doing~ :)

so, i move on... switched on my favourite lappy..set him open for minutes and later starts to type here and there..for once i thought that i wont be long infront of him, but i could not help myself writing something just to feel comfy..(ade ke such word? my aunt slalu marah..dunnoe the words tp nak sebut.. hahha) and later i need to finish my journal thingy and move on to other priorities.. :)

LUNCH~ (it is a fasting month,so tak makan la hey)

still working on the journals...tough job eventually..and never imagine myself will be doing this..haha :) whatever thought that im thinking rite now, sumpah i pikir yang it is good for my own practise and its actually preparing myself to the real working task... :)

NEARLY DONE....

ITs not actually done, but im just gonna stop here...

• telling myself to be sabar...to achieve something must work for it!


• and after all, been missing my other half ADDLYZAN ABD MANAP~

• tomorrow nak g dating ngan mek tie and aimi munchet! so lEsBo okay? :)

~blowing off the candles in my life~

as slalu.......................

tatau apa lagi yg kurang dalam semuanya kali ini,

mungkin perencah untuk resepi kebahgiaan sussah untuk di tukar sesuka hati,

mungkin, bahan yang digunakan layu semuanya,

dan......

mungkin jiwa telah kekok mengenali CINTA.

bukan sengaja,

kali ini benar-benar mahu dibelai manja,

patutnya aku tak mintak seperti peminta sedekah,

dan patutnya aku memang hanya untuk dia membelai.

SAYANGNYA,

semuanya kasar belaka,

kasar hingga aku mula memikirkan hidup ini tak apa jika dia tiada,

tiada lagi "i shed my tears for u",

kerna telaga air mata ini sudah kontang,

kerana mengenangkan nasib diriku.

im so sorry if im being selfish,

i know that you were never dream to have me by your side,

its crazy for those who are not chasing after you,

coz you are hot like a selling fast muffin with blueberry topping...

i wish that one fine day,

u will eventually find someone that fullfill your desires..

im officially backing off from your life..

thanks for the sweetest memories that i ever had with you..

<3~

blog ini d tujukan khas buat semua insan yang layak terima rindu-rinduanku~

well hye again...tenks for always tak bosan melawat dgn redhanye ke blog fee..

hari ini bumi ciptaan tuhan ini d limpahi rahmatnya dengan tangisan dingin yg aku sendiri rasakan teramat dingin menusuk kalbu. (aiceywah..bahase bunge2!)

it is not usuall for me to write in this kind of manners,but unfortunately (for my loyal readers, if only i have la kan) i rasekan arini perasaan sebu yg melampau...

for the first time, today i rasa begini....

• merindui insan yg telah lama pergi dari hidupku...rindu sgt padanya.. (al fatihah)
• rindu pada keluarga yg always there to support me in wateva situations,
• rindu pada teman2 sewaktu dari kecil hingga KINI...ada juga yg telah lama pergi meninggalkan aku...
• rindu pada Keindahan zaman remaja...

dan semestinya rindu pada addlyzan abd manap yg sentiasa bz dgn tanggungjwbnya.

and when i think of all the things that i've been missing lately, i realised that i didnt do much..so people around me didnt like what i've done for them... and some people think that im just another trash in their life..well, too bad coz we're leaving in the same world..im afraid that we have to share almost everything and not to say that im thankful to god coz im able to enjoy my life to the fullest..

berbalik pada cerita hari ini....

buka pose ngn apit and lala..ouh arini networking dah berkembang..kenal bob?? ahaha aku pon tak brape knl..tp for a first impression, bob tuh sgt la baik ati..geram sungguh ble tgk die..baik sangat!

sha: weyh bob, ko ni mkn...ish2!!! bak sini sikit.

bob: haa..amik la wey..aku ok..

sha: haa...camni ko jela blanje aku k???

bob: tgu gaji dlu arr..

apit: amboi lain macam je smbng?

sha: aphal doh?

bob: minyak wangi aku mane Lala?

lala: ade ni ha...tak lari pye la..

bob: eyyy ni aset ko tau??

apit: ko nak tau bob ni pkai minyak pengasih..

sha: sumpah??? yea??

bob: tak lah ni mcm 1 drop perfume..tp name die "anak mami"

sha,apit: wakakakakakaka....(tergoda doh)

tapi mmg, mlm tu aku agak terkesima melihat perwatakan bob..aku berani cakap arr takot plak nk pandang mata bob..mana tau terpikat plak kat anak mami sowg niyh!..tp ape2 pon aku sgt la enjoy bukak pose ngn bdk2 sengal itik ni...

~haPPY Ramadhan al mubarak~

.....!!!!omg..it's just too difficult to goreng!!!.....

...................... heyyy all.....................

let me just start today's blog like dis...im a bachelor student in english and currently in my semester 3..at first i thought that learning english much more easier than other language and it turn out to be not so.......EASY~ well, brieft enough, i told myself that whatever my decision is, english is still MY PASSION! i dont care and i still wanna learn, but something make me feel bad throughout my leraning progress is.....KEMALAS-MALASAN i yang tak dapat di bendung! seriously, maybe coz i've got other priority and i wasnt paying much attention when im in the class...most of the time, yea! :( so, to get back to the story, i felt much more useless when i knew and discovered myself that i can carry out the duty when learning FRENCH! i ended up failing and had most of the time bluffing about my essays and i dont care much when it comes to the time that i need to improve myself..that's baDDDD!!! sumpah terok okay...but then, i need help! i need a turbo boost sumthing2 to boost up my interest in learning french! and i admit,because of french...my marks gone down the drain and i wasted my time learning third language without knowing the purpose of learning it..

today: 24 august 09,

here again in the french class, writing and listening but sepatah haram pon tak lekat kat kepala otak. it is seriously susah! jus got back my test paper and it is typically TRASH! entahla...i've learned from mistake and now kena lah belajar part time french ngan baby and also ika.. :P

dear god! please help me...mid term french 14/9 kot!!!! pleaseeeeee~